
Originally Posted by
Jak
Thank you guys for the comments.
For some answers to some questions asked, I'm 25 and I've been losing weight since I was 18.
As for me saying my body is one big "blob" I mainly mean like.. between my waist and neck. And my blob I mean.. well it's like when I stand up it's all fine and dandy and doesn't look bad at all, in fact I can see some definition in my stomach but when I sit down or bend over it's like one.. big.. well.. blob. >_> I don't know how else to put it. It's just a bunch of skin with subcaceous(spelt wrong) fat.. the pinchable kind. I really think a lot of it is just stubborn fat since I know it's not all skin (hence why I want to lose fat but not more weight..).
And yes, I'm very hard on myself. After being called the "fat" kid and "fatass" and "big boobs" and going through high school wearing jackets in the summer just to avoid people seeing my fat.. I have had 0 self esteem and even now.. people call me anorexic yet I feel like I'm as fat as I was in high school.
(Boohoo story over) Thank you so much thus far, if anyone has anymore tips or anything I'm loving it. I'm very intently listening, reading, and researching everything I can because I'm ready for change! (And I plan on changing unlike some high up officials who want change...)
Edit: Oh and I don't know what a "Y" is and no doctor near me has any expertise in weight/muscle management.