Originally Posted by
Psion
as far as moving to a state that's cheaper, that's incredibly high on my priority list, but the problem is... it takes money to move. q-q especially out of state. i'm trying to save up now but since i only have 2 months to do so, that barely covers first and last months rent, which seems a dangerous move to pull off moving to another state without a job already lined up.
military is out as well, as i do not do well in that kind of atmosphere. it completely ruins my ability to work when under high pressure or strict discipline. conversely, relaxed atmospheres tend to have me working full throttle.
but then i saw you get charged an arm and a leg for shitty internet per hour and was like NOPE. i need my internet. XD
Imo you should have went into the military at 18 to learn some discipline so you wouldn't be in the situation you are in now. You are trying to live as a juvenile and have the mindset of one. Grow up. You will not have an ideal situation if you cannot create it yourself. Join the military before it is too late, save some money while serving and get some job skills. Once you are nearing the end of your service you can plan for where you will live and what job/career you will have.
Originally Posted by
Psion
never any spare time to actually pet the cats.
, a massive type A personality supervisor who discouraged even minor talking between employees,
just chilling in the back listening to music
major cons were the bosses never allowed you to stand still even for a minute, even during slow times, and no talking between employees. it just sucked, and eventually i had it terminated when my parents decided to move on black friday, were upset that i couldn't get the day off (wtf?), made me help them move despite having stood on my feet all day and having not eaten yet right after work, doing so until 3 am still without food, then when i had to work the next morning i naturally
started feeling faint and unable to stand after a few hours, asked the bosses if i could go home early while explaining the situation. they said no, i said i needed to anyways, and yeah. >.>
then my parents screamed at me for getting fired despite it being their damn fault, made me help them move some more immediately, and didn't let up until my legs gave out while carrying a box down the stairs and wound up taking the gravity route along with it, while somehow miraculously avoiding breaking my neck. after this, i avoid CVS like the plague due to trauma.
actually encouraged talking between employees so long as work wasnt disturbed, and kept everyone smiling. i was also allowed to use earbuds and listen to music while working too, so even though the work itself was tedious and boring, it was something i could do while daydreaming so it wasn't so bad, other than having a sore back from bending over all day.
t's both tedious and requires concentration, AND you can't listen to music, AND you don't really get to talk to coworkers. so basically, no daydreaming, no music, its silent as a crypt, and you're on your ass all day.
major pros include being able to eat stacks while at the desk
in summary, the things i dont seem to like for sure involve hectic pace, doing the same thing over and over (tedious), doing things that require concentration (can't relax and daydream while doing it to pass the time), or worse, ones that require both. repeating the same old tired lines to a customer doesn't appeal to me at all, nor does extensive involvement with people. i don't mind talking to people, but i'm a bit more introverted by nature, so i need some time to myself to recover.
i'm not very strong seeing as how i never exercise.
i don't have much education, i still have no real career goal,
(adventurer/mage <yes, please>)
These snippets are what screams to me you have the mentality of a child. Work is for you to pet cats, shoot the breeze, or chill out and listen to music. Work is to make someone else a profit, so you can make a living. Understand that, it doesn't have to be a soul sucking ordeal. Be zen about it, peel the fucking potatoes and go home at the end of the day.
Originally Posted by
Psion
i'm not trying to find a career that i'm good at, but one that i enjoy.
Getting a job that you are good at will be much more financially rewarding and is what a responsible adult should be looking for first. Once you have that, then you have the luxury to find one you enjoy. Prioritize. If you have to work 2 jobs to make ends meet, too bad, so sad, that is what you have to do.
Originally Posted by
Psion
this whole thread is me trying to help myself find something that gives me a drive. so yeah, id say its a lack of drive seeing as how i've been a little busy with other shit like being rejected by my own family for years. they still barely tolerate me, and ill be glad when i move out again in a couple months.
im looking forward to more constructive input in the meantime.
unlike me, they're rich-ish.
This thread is actually you wanting other people to help you figure your life out. We are trying to help, but it is up to you to listen to it. Also, your parents don't owe you a damn thing. Stop expecting it and you'll be less depressed when they don't help.
Originally Posted by
Psion
did you miss the part where i was kicked out of the house for years simply for being gay? cause that totally happened. and my parents have never EVER made life comfortable for me. my allowance as a kid was 5 dollars a week. i had to do a bunch of chorse every day for that 5 dollars. they didn't treat us out to dinner often except on birthdays.
RE: Chores - welcome to how they were supposed to raise you. It was to prepare you for adult life. It didn't seem to help you. sad.
@ what age did they boot you? If it was after 18, you should have been moved out anyway. Don't let your situation define you. There are many people out there that have far better excuses that still manage to be successful. And stop trying to blame other people for stuff, you got fired from cvs because you "couldn't eat", manage your time better or grow a set of nuts to tell your folks to wait 15 minutes, or just deal with a bad day. 24 hours without food isn't going to kill you or make you faint.
Grow the fuck up. You are 31 years old. I've meet teenagers who had their lives better sorted out.