So heard today that the baby has 1/71 chance to have trisomy 13-18 or 21
While it seems small they passed from 1/4000 to 1/355 to 1/71 due to age and other stuff
We passed some blood test and should know in about 10 days ish
GF is 26 weeks preggo
So heard today that the baby has 1/71 chance to have trisomy 13-18 or 21
While it seems small they passed from 1/4000 to 1/355 to 1/71 due to age and other stuff
We passed some blood test and should know in about 10 days ish
GF is 26 weeks preggo
almost a year since my last wave of tooth pain but it's back
man, ever since Covid, I'd had to do all medical appointments over the phone and the night before, I don't know why but it causes me such anxiety that I end up having a panic attack.
I don't know if its just the fear of being cut off cold turkey from my pain meds, which has happen before, the the fear that they'll keep trying to declare me an mentally troublesome patient so anything I say against them gets discredited, since I'm like 95% sure I got my Transplant Nurse fired and my Transplant doctor in a lot of trouble.
So, I've popped sleeping pills, I haven't slept in two days, I should be passed the fuck out. But I can't, anytime I close my eyes, I replay a lot of the outright abuse I received at the start of Cancer. And I'm on bare bones pain killers as is and I"m barely able to get out of bed most days. If I get cut off cold turkey again, I can see some serious damage happening to my lungs.
To say I feel unwanted is a massive understatement
Phone call appointment went good. Spoke to a new doctor. I forgot I filed a massive complaint against my two primary CF/Transplant Doctor and Nurse. I filed a complaint against my doctor for her telling me that she was okay with and had hoped Cancer would kill me, she violated doctor/patient confidentiality by telling my mother my entire medical history and how they think “I’m mentally unstable and can’t be trusted”, multiple times, and a whole myriad of other shit. And I filed a complaint against the Nurse who basically told me to go fuck myself at the start of cancer and had admitted to me that she was hoping I’d have waited the two months for that CT I asked for at the start of cancer so that “I wouldn’t be her problem anymore”. I can also confirm that I did that get bitch of a Nurse fired.
Now, my only fear is meeting with a new psychiatrist. I know it needs to be done. I know I need to fix my fear, anxiety, and PTSD, but that’s easier said than done.
Fuck, I am just a mental mess
yeah
but who wouldn't be?
hope the new care team does right by you. i almost said "better" but that's too low a bar, since the old team was violating basic standards of care.
Hit a piece of ice going into my driveway and cracked my front bumper. Wasn’t even pulling in fast.
Super annoyed because it’s a new car and I’m trying to save money for a down payment on a house. Not sure if I’m going to get it fixed anytime soon or not now depending on the price. Every time I look at my car I’m going to be in a bad mood now.
Getting super depressed lately because my job sucks and has me working extra hours for free because I’m salary based, and now this.
As someone who wanted to buy the same car, I'm sad for you, fam.
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I have worked something like 3 hourly jobs in my life / don't remember them and I know the billable hours are an entirely different fiasco, but in theory I feel that hourly wages should set up very healthy workplace practices. Pay me $75/hr and have me bill my time to projects based on a strict accounting of my meetings and crap. I bet a lot of the sprint planning review re-review pre-meetings would get trashed.
OMG I JUST WASTED MY WHOLE MORING.
So we are doing Wednesday as asynchronous learning. Basically we don't meet with the students but give them assignments to do on Wednesday to complete for credit. Wednesday for teachers is supposed to be grading and all the extra stuff we have to do with distance learning.
We are using a new program this year and the program has a placement test (one ELA and another Math) for students. We have to have the results filed for LAUSD and we have some students who haven't completed yet. My boss asked for a list of our students who haven't taken the tests so they could organize a way to get the kids to complete them. She had put another teacher in charge of the program. I love this teacher and trust her (first mistake). I asked the teacher if there was a way to print out a report, she said no you had to go to the students profile one-by-one.
Problem is, too, I archived the tests last semester which means I had to generate the class list, click on student, click on archived, click test, click unarchive, view whether student completed, re-archive. Rinse repeat. Took me three hours to go through the 9th grade, then I remembered the math teacher asked if I could do the 10th grade math for her.
I said, nah, I can't this is monotonous. Messed with reports for 10 minutes, FOUND A WAY TO MAKE A SPREADSHEET OF COMPLETION FOR ALL STUDENTS AND ALL TESTS. Why oh why did I trust that teacher. *flips table*
You don't need 5~ more years of this to be a good Administrator.
Just fell at work because I'm a clutz and apparently didn't move the desk chair away as far as I thought. Worst part was I was on a phone call with mental health so hit the speaker button so they heard it all , lol.
Pride is hurt the most right now but expect to be sore tomorrow.
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How little can people care about their business correspondence? I get that auto-correct can be annoying, but why would you ever send an e-mail in which you address a business partner as Mr. Kleenex? Not sure if I should feel insulted, but Jesus, take the two seconds it takes to check if at least the name is correct.
I thought I would give an update on this for the heck of it. I talked to someone at the hospital and they said I didn't have to pay the four thousand all at once and it was on a payment plan. I have already paid for half of the 4k. That's the good news. The bad news is I don't qualify for any financial assistance. They are pretty much tapped out because of Covid and they only giving aid to the most desperate in need. I don't have a lot of money but I'm not poor. I didn't mean to make it sound like I was in my original post. I just freaked out cause I thought I would have to pay all that money at once. The bill just said, "Balance due" and nothing about payments. It was the first time in my life that I got worried I would have to choose between medical treatment or normal bills. That said I'm still going to have to thigten my belt for the foreseeable future. No more unnecessary spending. Any future stimulus payment we get is just going to go poof I guess. The cost of one treatment after insurance is $1,786 and I'm going to pay 890sih a month. I think I can do it. I thought about calling the Crohn's and Colitis Foundation but I will only do that if it gets bad.I'm on Entyvio for my Crohns disease. It's sorta like Remicade where it is administered via IV slowly over a period of time. Unlike Remicade though or other similar drugs it's designed to only treat Crohns or Ulcerative Colitis and supposedly does not suppress your immune system. I started it last year after a colonoscopy showed the disease had returned. I had to have a bowel resection in January 2019 because a small part of the intestine had gotten so damaged and scarred that it was only a matter of time before I got obstructed. My GI doctor said it was only in two small spots near the surgery site but it was serious enough that he wanted to put me on something right away to try and get ahead of it this time. I have taken it before years ago kind of.. When it was new my doctor wanted to try it on me to get me into remission. He was enthusiast about it because studies had shown good results, only works in your gut, etc. Thing is like Remicade it is VERY expensive. When you first start treatment they give you what they call, "loading doses" very close together and if you tolerate it and their are no side effects you start treatment of one infusion every eight weeks. Back then just after I had started my first regular treatment like a week later I got a letter from my insurance company saying, "NOPE! TO EXPENSIVE!" and they wouldn't pay for it so I had to stop it. I was put on and off Prednisone (FUUUUUUUUU >_<) and it just gradually got worse. Cut to recent times.
So I'm on it for real now and they said at first not to worry that insurance covers it now and that costs have come down. The lady that handles insurance at their office said that I would only have to pay $358 every time I have a treatment. That's it. Well she was WRONG!! I got a bill the other day for over 4,000 dollars! Turns out that the 358 is just the co-pay every time I have the treatment! The insurance company does pay a huge chunk of the cost and they eat (lose money) on some of it. My out of pocket cost is $1,428 for each treatment. So with the co-pay it's really $1,786. The bill I got was just for the first few loading doses and not my latest treatments. I literally don't know what I'm going to do. I can't afford this.
lmao i got fired and rehired in the same shift
The fail is that i didn't stay fired. She thought she fired me for something I wouldn't get unemployment for; when she found out I would, i said nvm on the firing lmao. If they want to pay me to sit at home and not come in, I woulda been 100% down for it
I might have kidney stones, so that’s fun. Waiting on my doctor for confirmation.
I don't have a smart phone/telephone service. Lost hours due to covid there's unemployment benefits for that even on lost hours if you're working. Can't even apply if you don't have a phone one is required to apply so stuck until i can get someone w/ a smart phone willing to come spend the time with me to go through the application process and then i'd need them for any time i wanted to log in via 2 factor authentication
You can apply for a free smart phone on the stats of FL benefits website. I got asked if I wanted to apply for one when I did my SNAP application a little while back.
I debated about posting this but I need to vent and get it out of my system.
My cancer doctor called today and told me I have to come in for an urgent appointment(No matter what over the last year,
I’ve been getting monthly letters that I’m not allowed near the hospital as the chance of me getting covid and dying are stupid high, so a meeting in person is a big deal), tomorrow(today). I’m honestly fucking scared. I haven’t spoken to my Cancer doc in over a year and even for phone appointments, all I did was talk to her Nurse. For her to call me, is not good news, at all.
I’m going to have a horrible mental break down. Cancer is fucking bullshit and I’ve been through in life for a dozen life times. And then ontop of all that, my body just keeps getting worse from the chemo side effects i had two years ago. I’m not getting better, I’m only getting worse.
I just....I miss who and what I was. I guess I’ll try to get a little bit of sleep and calm down. I know I’ve always talked about my death and nothings come of it, but I am truly scared and this could mean my cancer is back. It’s most likely nothing, probably something really small and I’m worrying for nothing but the brain is a real cunt.
I apologize if I annoy people with my posts. I’m sorry I am who I am. Bane keeps telling me to stop putting myself down as it doesn’t help but in situations like this, where the mind goes to dark places.
Could it just be a regular control appointment since it has been a year and COVID-19 cases are more stable than before?
Mind always seeks to wander towards the worst case at times like this, it is understandable. Keep us posted.
Skipped lunch today at work as I was still full from breakfast after 1pm. I'm now absolutely starving and still have an hour before I can leave.
So, after needlessly giving myself anxiety last night. My Doctor called me today and told me I have to wait til monday as she is currently. I did ask if my appointment was anything bad and was told "Its nothing bad but it is still urgent", so I unno.
Times like this I wish I could smoke pot or get drunk. Stressed like a motherfucker in this bitch.
Just to add. I just had a fail happen that isn’t some horrible life or death thing about my life. I was asleep, I like 5% woke up, I was thirsty. I grabbed an Pepsi that I keep on bed side table.
So I grabbed it no took off the cap, I tilt it ever so slightly to just get a sip. My hand decided to have an insane spasm I proceeded to dump damn near all the Pepsi on my face. A lot of it went up my nose, and some went down my wind pipe. And worst of all. My face, neck, ears, pillow and blanket are in dire need of a heavy cleaning.