Do you post every damn problem you have on a forum JP?
Just curious, because you seem to be the biggest drama queen on the internet, i am not sure if this was to get sympathy or advice...Either way this is crap you need to take care of yourself and not broadcast to the rest of the goddamn planet, try to think for yourself once in awhile rather than get affirmation that you are or are not doing what everyone else thinks you should be doing.