BG Medical - Am I going insane or having anxiety issues?

[Nitsuki]

Ok so here's what's been going on.

I went on vacation from work last thursday (6/16) until monday (6/26), so far it's been cool and relaxing during the daytime. However while I sleep or napped, i've randomly had odd dreams about going to work extremely late, or getting fired from work for being late, or randomly had a 2nd job in which I was on vacation from my main job but still was working at my 2nd job.

When I wake up i feel anxious and have been losing sleep because of it. I know my vacation is almost over and i'll be going back to work soon. But i'm wondering if there's anyone who's had this issue and it is just normal or I should actually seek some sort of help from this?

One thing to note is that this is the first time i've ever had REAL paid vacation from a job, and this is my first full time job. I also do get worried about getting fired sometimes at work because I do pay the rent to my apartment for me and my gf. I'm not too entirely sure that this would be playing some sort of effect.

[Seanr]

go smoke somethin man...

[archibaldcrane]

You should tell your girlfriend to get a jobby job.

[Nitsuki]

lol, she has a job, she pays the utilities just fine.

I do have my own set of bills on top of the rent, and to add I don't smoke AT ALL, just drink socially.

[Avanarius]

Your subconscious is essentially stuck in work mode. I get the feeling sometimes while on short vacations although, I'm usually worrying about someone else doing something wrong because I often do my job quite well.

I've found the only way to relieve this is to make sure all your loose ends are tied before going on vacation as that would be the only thing that can cause this feeling.

Also go get drunk.

[Seanr]

go get some pussy

[OWS_Tonx]

sounds like you got lupus

[Bregor]

Never go on vacation again.

[Arrmani]

I have dreams like that all the time, but I don't feel stressed out about work or school or anything. It just gets frustrating waking up and realizing I wasn't working, but now I have to go do the same thing for a few hours more.

[Zilong]

http://xkcd.com/557/

[solanis]

you need to chill out and especially stop worrying about your gf. something is causing you to worry about work - do you have anxiety over your performance? do you think you haven't done well recently?

[Nitsuki]

you need to chill out and especially stop worrying about your gf. something is causing you to worry about work - do you have anxiety over your performance? do you think you haven't done well recently?

Nothing is wrong or worrying me about my gf, she's not the one causing me stress.

But to answer your question, i work pretty hard at the job, and a few other employees mention it to me. I always think i do at least ok at work and have nothing to worry about.

Maybe it's because it used to be a job i was comfortable with now it's just extremely uncomfortable because of the obvious favoritism and how much of best friends my current manager and recently promoted supervisor (in which she got it by obvious ass kissing, and did everything possible to get rid of the old supervisor who was awesome). I deal with it, but it may be that it is finally getting to me in the back of my mind.

Sorry that it just became a rant about work, but none of the employees or the 3rd key enjoy the job and how it has become.

Also one more thing to add is that i also tend to feel unproductive while i'm not working, maybe i am not used to taking vacation time.

[solanis]

Nothing is wrong or worrying me about my gf, she's not the one causing me stress.

But to answer your question, i work pretty hard at the job, and a few other employees mention it to me. I always think i do at least ok at work and have nothing to worry about.

Maybe it's because it used to be a job i was comfortable with now it's just extremely uncomfortable because of the obvious favoritism and how much of best friends my current manager and recently promoted supervisor (in which she got it by obvious ass kissing, and did everything possible to get rid of the old supervisor who was awesome). I deal with it, but it may be that it is finally getting to me in the back of my mind.

Sorry that it just became a rant about work, but none of the employees or the 3rd key enjoy the job and how it has become.

Also one more thing to add is that i also tend to feel unproductive while i'm not working, maybe i am not used to taking vacation time.

sounds like a really normal workaholic mindset, like the above posters said. you aren't going insane, just having anxiety that lots and lots of people have. there's no need to just live with it though. there are some great books out there for relaxation techniques specifically geared towards work-related stress, and therapy if your insurance covers it/you can afford it is another good option. sit down with your gf and tell her how you've been feeling, if you have a good relationship then she can probably help you unwind and support you.

[greenhills]

go smoke somethin man...

^

[Kerberoz]

Crazy? I'm sane. By god am I sane.

[Nitsuki]

i'm drunks as fucck thanks to you guyss. thnaks.

[Odesseiron]

Crazy? I'm sane. By god am I sane.

SMELL MY GREATNESS!

And Nitsuki, sounds like you need Prozac. Or weed. If you can get away with no drug tests at your job!

[Miroku_Asura]

Take off you watch and turn off your phone. Then, fuck your girlfriend until the two of you pass out from exhaustion. Restful sleep GO!

[Ksandra]

as other's said it's just work anxiety/habit. It's like how you wake up early every day at like 6 a.m. and then friday night happens and you're like "FUCK YA I"MA SLEEP IN TOMORROW" And then you wake up at like 5:50 a.m. and can't get back to sleep.....I fucking hate that lol.


Also reminds me of those dreams I've had in college (others have told me they've had similar dreams too) where you dream that you wake up and realize you had signed up for a class and just never went to it, but it's already halfway through the semester and "how the fuck did I forget that I signed up for that class". Actually wakes you up in wtf mode.


GDI I hated that dream.

[Nitsuki]

Pretty much how I feel, the dreams have kept happening, but i've lost my buzz already, i drank quite a bit tonight and hopefully this can put me in a good rest tonight. We'll see tho.

BTW Ksandra, how long were you on ragnarok? I recall seeing your character around when I was still playing and I was gonna /tell you Nene Romanova!! Didn't know it was you. lol