Live life to the fullest

[Myrrh_Quetz]

I had a friend pass away on Thursday Night because his body rejected his lungs after 3 years. He lived every day to the fullest and sometimes he did stupid stuff. He went on a 6 month Boat trip with his uncle and took many risks with his life but he did everything that made him happy and I'm sure he had no regrets.

I owe my life to him. Without him, I wouldn't have gone through with my own Lung Transplant(The only other transplant I knew of was my childhood friend who died on my 18th Birthday during his surgery) and it was his advice on what to expect that kept me from panicking when I woke up after the surgery. Because of how well he did, I pushed myself so fucking hard Post Transplant that I beat his Surgery to Discharge by 4 days. We were supposed to go to Hawaii in 2 months as a We survived thing but it looks like I'll be going alone now.

I know he had no regrets and you people should never have regrets. I miss him so much. He was the only person I met in my life that truly understood what it was like to be that sick and have the same amount of shitty luck.

Always live life to the fullest. That's all.

[Vandole]

what was it like when you first woke up from that surgery? i've got millions of questions about it.


sorry to hear about your friend. that kind of shit is a harsh reality check...

[Myrrh_Quetz]

For me, my mind was very confused. I wasn't sure if it was real(I had gone into surgery expecting to die). After about 10 seconds, I heard my mother beside me and 2 nurses. They wanted me to open my mouth so they could put in a feed tube. At first I was ready to panic and start ripping shit out but then I heard my friends voice in my head saying "It's okay, Randy. This is what should be happening. Your surgery was a success, you're alive. Right now they want to put a feeding tube in. Swallow it and then close your eyes. You're still weak."

I woke up, I think 10 or so hours later, they left the breathing tube and the feeding tube in but I was awake. I was still terrified as I honestly didn't believe it was all real. I had a pad to write on and I'm told that most people who write on a pad after something like this write in scribbles but I wrote out full coherent sentences. The nurses were all amazed.

I flirted with the nurses a bit by pointing to the cute ones and doing the finger in the hole with my hands or writing down "I demand a sponge bath" or "Scratch my ass, please". To be fair, my ass was so fucking itchy after transplant. It became a running gag in ICU after that.

I can go on if you'd like.

[miokomioko]

Waking up from general anesthesia is always horribly confusing and scary. I don't know why that is.

(also, my sincere condolences)

[test123]

I'm gonna go with a 1mill morgage and live my life as a debt slave tho.

[Kuishen]

Waking up from general anesthesia is always horribly confusing and scary. I don't know why that is.

(also, my sincere condolences)

I remember waking up from getting a mole removed on my back (that later got infected and now have a huge scar because of, go figure) and they wanted to get me out of the hospital as fucking fast as possible. I'm sitting there dazed and confused and they want me to sit up, wake up, stand up and gtfo. After it was clear that I was not going to be doing those things the nurse grunted and maliciously said she'd be back in 5 mins, came back in 30 seconds (at least it felt like 30 seconds) and did the same routine. It's bad enough to be confused as fuck and have your own mind be completely incoherent to yourself but to be rushed to gtfo is really bad.

I know if my best friend Greg ever died on me I would be devastated and probably drink myself to death within a week. My sincere condolences and best wishes for your own health. I can't say that I know what it's like to lose a best friend and I hope I never have to, but it seems you have the right attitude about it, so good on you for that. Time heals all wounds, otheruselessclichesgohere. Hope everything goes smooth with your transplant from here on out.

[Myrrh_Quetz]

Believe me when I say this. I've wanted to quit on my life many many times by now. I've been through so much that it's amazing that I'm even able to smile but the way I see it is. We are on this earth for such a short time and whether or not there is an afterlife after this one I will live this life the best way I can, making those around me smile. I could die tomorrow for all I know but if I did I would die happy because I know I've done what I wanted.

I could scare the shit out of you if I said talked about the stuff I've been through lol

[Mayareira]

Waking up from general anesthesia was "cold", that's all I remember from it.

I definitely agree with the OP about living life to the fullest. Reality checks remind you of that thing rather harshly.

[Shuvo]

My condolences. It's sad, especially considering in maybe 10 years we'll most likely have fully functional artificial lungs available for transplant. :/

Waking up from general anesthesia is always horribly confusing and scary. I don't know why that is.

Sure is. I remember when I woke up from my wisdom teeth removal (had all four out at once), I woke up with my nurse standing over me. Nurse was this big muscly dude with a beard that looked really badass. My first reaction was to jump out of bed and punch him in the face. >< Needle came right out of my arm and blood started pissing everywhere, before I passed out again.

[Asai]

I feel for you. Have had two too many reality checks lately.

[hey]

Live life to the fullest? Ok, brb trolling port jeuno for a few hours.

[Odon]

Just out of curiosity, have you made your peace with death? I know that you say you understand you could die and to live life in the now and what not, but are you actually ready and accepting of that fact?

[Odon]

Also Hi Myrrh, long time no see.

[Myrrh_Quetz]

Just out of curiosity, have you made your peace with death? I know that you say you understand you could die and to live life in the now and what not, but are you actually ready and accepting of that fact?

I am. I've died twice, nearly died at least a dozen times, and I fully expected to die during my transplant. It would suck to die early in my life but I'm okay if I do.

Live life to the fullest? Ok, brb trolling port jeuno for a few hours.

I've also played a MMO for the last 8 years. I regret nothing as I did what I enjoyed. I've made countless friends, had countless laughs, and made sure I'd be remembered. Everyone has their own definition of enjoyment.

[altwight]

What do/did you have?

[Venga]

James Dean quote comes to mind.

Big fan of the whole "carpe diem" stuff.

Sorry to hear about your friend, it's things like that that make you realize what you have / had and can reflect.

[TheTaru]

I feel like I've mentioned it too many times (like I'm whining or something), but I have inoperable brain cancer. It hasn't grown post-treatment (several years), but if it ever does, there basically isn't anything that can be done. More radiation (I think) wouldn't be effective, and would just destroy my ability to function even more anyway, so I wouldn't do it. Chemo did nothing, etc. It's a very odd feeling basically knowing what is going to kill you, but not when nor where.

Whatever happens is basically out of my hands. I'm probably the healthiest person on earth with my type of cancer that's had this amount of treatment. I guess that's sort of like being the smartest kid in the retard class though. I've just been living like a normal person, and will continue to do so until I get an MRI showing me that there's been a change. After that, I'm not sure.

tl;dr Dying is bad, mmkay

[Outlaw]

I'm really sorry to hear about your friend but thank you for posting this. It resonated with me. I usually don't talk about my personal health but I feel somehow like I should now. I have had major surgery twice in my life and it is such a scary experience. It was nothing compared to what you have gone through though. Both times was when I was younger. First time I was 5 I think? and the other was when I was 15. The second time was much worse. I won't go into much detail cause this post would drag on but at the time because of my worsening condition, my body had started to die. (They didn't tell me this until later!) I was terrified. I tried not to show it but having to have it done so young I think made it worse. I made it through the surgery fine but had to stay in the hospital about a month. I was bed ridden most of the time all the while being constantly pumped full of drugs, stuck with needles a dozen times a day to draw blood, woken up before the sun everyday to have MRI's done, etc. I also had to be NPO for a long time and couldn't eat or drink anything. That was awful in it's self. The nurses were SUPER nice though. I had several nurses tell me they couldn't believe how tough I was cause I hardly ever complained. I was given IV morphine for a while though lol. Even after I got out of the hospital it took me such a long time to recover. I couldn't do certain things on my own for about six months.

Sorry, I'm probably dragging on. Point is it made me think how you do now. I didn't immediately think about living life to the fullest but it really made me consider my own mortality. Most teenagers think their invincible and all that but it made me mature up faster. There is still the possibility that I will get sick again and I have to live with that. So.. hell yeah!! No regrets!

[Dimmauk]

What do/did you have?

Cystic fibrosis?

Sorry for your loss Myrrh.

[Vandole]

I could scare the shit out of you if I said talked about the stuff I've been through lol

please do, i'm quite honestly very interested in this.