Forum Get Well Card for Nirokun

[Nirokun!]

there's people who make a good living just going around selling their wares at these things, so im sure you can get everything you could want that relates even remotely to renaissance. Those stupid animal tails preteens were wearing for a while... period-authentic chainmail haubergeon... SWORDS.

I want my hair braided and my boobs hoisted. Too bad I don't have great boobs to do that. ._. I'd have to look up drag queen magic (that involves an uncomfortable amount of duct tape) to even try to attempt that. Oh well~

[WrenDraco]

Corsets will give ANYONE boobs. Seriously, skinny boys put them on and suddenly acquire cleavage. And they're much more comfortable than duct tape.

[vagus]

http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedi...Gobran111).jpg

Getting a corset and someone helping you tie it will give you the pushup you desire. I don't know how long your hair is, but braids require quite a bit.

http://www.howtohairgirl.com/wp-cont...den-bride-.jpg

[Nirokun!]

Hi friends. Long time? Long time!

Can I take a moment to address today's events with the women who read this thread? So, I went to the gynecologist today for the treatment of the remaining granulation beneath my clitoris. The treatment is silver nitrate, applied to the area. I read as much, and felt okay with this. I knew some people had pain, I couldn't pre-medicate because it was a long drive to an unfamiliar area at high speed and, you know, I didn't want to die.

So, last night I looked up the doctor, and found out my gyno would be a man. I was a little... affected by this for a minute, but got over it because, duh, Dr. Suporn is a man and I should not be stupid about it. So that's cool, I met him and he's professional and asks questions relating to MY vagina (how often dilation/painful dilation?/depth/etc) and not "normal questions" (last period, contraceptives, etc), which is really nice. So, let me ask a question: Is it really weird to be touched down there? Like, I started to shake, feel hot (probably bright red in the face/neck area), and really wanted everything to be over. Mind you, I've showed family, friends, and random medical people, beaming with pride. But being touched is something else entirely. Thoughts? Experiences? I hope I learn to calm down.

The silver nitrate treatment initially felt fine, but then it felt like someone was holding a lighter to my clitoris. I didn't even have granulation on my clitoris, just beneath it, but FUCK, FIRE! So, I'm just shaking, probably bright red, and trying to stifle screams and expletives while staring at the ceiling. The entire time, he's super professional and working quickly. I thought he just did one part, but he did it all.

We'll see what happens.

Part 2, the man.

So, it's been a long time with the man update. I don't want to bore you, there was a 5 hour conversation--you read that right--with cuddling (I've never done that, and that was really nice). But we want different things. I want a relationship because anything less just makes me feel like "Well, this is all I'm good for, this is the best that I can do" (and that line of thought happened during the sexual assault, and I don't want to re-live that). He's okay with sex, but said that he "didn't know" and didn't want to hurt me. We decided to just be friends, because he's not ready for a relationship (bad breakup, failed relationships since then, moving back home to save money and go back to school) and I'm not mature/experienced enough to have a fwb situation. Everyone I asked about whether or not I would be hurt by a casual thing all said "YES!", and I feel that way, too. I still play with the idea in my head, that it could just be fun and positive experience for me (you mean something that feels good in the vagina-area, what is this sorcery!?), especially considering him just talking to me gets me aroused, and I can't even get/stay aroused by myself. I feel like I'd have a fighting chance for an orgasm with him. lol But I always just step back and thing how stupid all of that sounds when I have feelings for him and he either doesn't, or isn't ready, I'm just shooting myself in the foot. Oh well. Friends is fine because (aside from the fact that I should have a degree in being friends with guys I'm attracted to) he's interesting and some of his friends are my old high school friends. If something happens later, after a while, then great, but even if nothing happens I still have more friends than I had going into this.

Tomorrow is my appointment with my physician's assistant to talk about hormones. Well see how that goes. (My laser lady, a nurse practitioner, even said my boobs have shrunk!)

I'm tired and need a nap because I was up late BAWLING MY EYES OUT because my friends (a married couple) are most likely moving away to another state because he'll get paid more, she can stop working and start having babies. I'm happy for them because this is a really awesome opportunity to move forward in life, but I'm not good with goodbye's. I met him in 2005 in college (my roommate's friend) and her when he brought her to meet me at the dining hall (she wanted a gay friend and I was chosen at the time lol). I'm literally heartbroken over this, and my eyelids are like 3x their normal size because I've been crying so much.

Okay, nap!

[Ddz]

Having a gyno exam is always uncomfortable, but you start to not be as embarrassed/uncomfy the more you go. They see a lot of cooch every single day and yours is not special, haha. If you have a good OB, they'll tell you when to expect pressure, when it might hurt, what you will feel when they do something, etc. I'm pregnant (yay!) so I've been seeing a lot of my OB lately. I'm glad your experience was personalized.

As far as intimacy with another person goes, you have to decide what is comfortable for you.

[Komm Suesser Tod]

I came in here expecting to see "I GOT THE DIIIIIIIIIIIICCCCCCCKKKKKKKKK!" Disappointing!

[myreality]

Ok here is what you do.

Grab a few drinks together, get drunk have sex.

Alcohols fault, conscious is clear.

[archibaldcrane]

Ok here is what you do.

Grab a few drinks together, get drunk have sex.

Alcohols fault, conscious is clear.

This is fucking awful advice lol

[myreality]

This is fucking amazing advice lol

I concur good sir.

Also have to say I want that goblet.

[Abandon]

Ok here is what you do.

Grab a few drinks together, get drunk have sex.

Alcohols fault, conscious is clear.

wut

[myreality]

Please tell me in not going to have to put a disclaimer on that post. It's a quick joke, nothing to see here people.

[Nirokun!]

Having a gyno exam is always uncomfortable, but you start to not be as embarrassed/uncomfy the more you go. They see a lot of cooch every single day and yours is not special, haha. If you have a good OB, they'll tell you when to expect pressure, when it might hurt, what you will feel when they do something, etc. I'm pregnant (yay!) so I've been seeing a lot of my OB lately. I'm glad your experience was personalized.

As far as intimacy with another person goes, you have to decide what is comfortable for you.

I'm honestly not embarrassed (I know what that's like, lots of shame pre-op), I even invited the other girl assisting him to take a look at this "medical marvel" lol, it's just the touching. He was very diligent about telling me he was going to touch me (and how, and what was going to happen, i.e. "You'll feel pressure, I'm going to spread your labia"), I just felt SUPER vulnerable. So much shaking, and my heels were in the stirrups and I was TRYING to keep my knees apart but they just kept pulling towards each other like magnets... And lady, I'll have you know my vagina is very special! 100% artificial, made from all-natural materials! A medical marvel and a work of art. I could have bought a new car with what I spent!

Congratulations on your pregnancy! (You know I expect pictures of these things!)

[AoE]

Please tell me in not going to have to put a disclaimer on that post. It's a quick joke, nothing to see here people.

http://i732.photobucket.com/albums/w...rink_stare.gif

[Charismatic]

lol, bringing back the old school reaction gifs. Gotta love it.

[Abandon]

oh wow, rofl, haven't seen that in forever

[Ddz]

I'm honestly not embarrassed (I know what that's like, lots of shame pre-op), I even invited the other girl assisting him to take a look at this "medical marvel" lol, it's just the touching. He was very diligent about telling me he was going to touch me (and how, and what was going to happen, i.e. "You'll feel pressure, I'm going to spread your labia"), I just felt SUPER vulnerable. So much shaking, and my heels were in the stirrups and I was TRYING to keep my knees apart but they just kept pulling towards each other like magnets... And lady, I'll have you know my vagina is very special! 100% artificial, made from all-natural materials! A medical marvel and a work of art. I could have bought a new car with what I spent!

Congratulations on your pregnancy! (You know I expect pictures of these things!)

After your 3rd or 4th exam you just learn to let your knees fall and relax at the sides. I dgaf anymore :/

[Salodin]

After your 3rd or 4th exam you just learn to let your knees fall and relax at the sides. I dgaf anymore :/

Slut.

But really, my gf tells me the exact thing about her doctor visits lol.

[WrenDraco]

I still need to go to a mental happy place during gyno visits, and I don't even have any assault history. But you get used to it, and if the doctor's all professional about it then it'll be okay.

[Manako]

Yeah after the first time or so its less about being uncomfortable with the fact that someone is up in your plumbing and more being uncomfortable the stupid swab test. I only get weird about whether I shave before going to the doctor... or specifically not shave because I'm trying to figure out whether I should shave or not o_O

Sorry to hear your man didn't work out, glad to hear you're able to stand up for what you believe in :D

[Nirokun!]

Yeah after the first time or so its less about being uncomfortable with the fact that someone is up in your plumbing and more being uncomfortable the stupid swab test. I only get weird about whether I shave before going to the doctor... or specifically not shave because I'm trying to figure out whether I should shave or not o_O

Sorry to hear your man didn't work out, glad to hear you're able to stand up for what you believe in :D

No cervix, no pap smear. (I HOPE!) I've kept myself trimmed for the longest time (since I was a teenager) because I don't like the long hair nor razor bumps from a clean shave. That's more a me-thing than caring what other people have to think. lol

I had a great doctor's appointment (well, she's a PA, but still) yesterday. She was completely receptive to all of my concerns. I got my blood drawn for testosterone AND estrogen levels, which she previously said I wouldn't need anymore (despite prescribing me estrogen, and knowing the other doctor had prescribed me testosterone gel for my libido), and said I should have it done at least yearly. I got my estrogen upped from 2mg/day to 4mg/day (I was at 8mg/day before the surgery) because I told her how I didn't like the changes (loss of breast volume/sensitivity, lack of feeling emotionally "connected", not having that "glow" I had before and developing acne which I didn't have before either, etc). Seeing her next month to review the lab results and talk about upping the estrogen again.