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  1. #3761

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    My freezer’s motor suddenly started making annoyingly loud sounds like a tractor. It’s loud as fuck. Like, door shut, can hear it from different rooms in the apartment loud. It’s still putting out cold air though. I dunno what the hell lol

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    Your compressor is on its last legs.

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    Which is usually the costliest repair of a refrigerator.

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    Costliest for my landlord it will be.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Anoat View Post
    Costliest for my landlord it will be.
    If it is your landlord, report it now. It will die in a few days either way and who knows how quickly someone gets out to fix it.

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    I'll venture a guess it becomes a game of "unplug it for a day to let the innards thaw" that's ultimately just delaying the inevitable failure.

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    I know a lot of you don’t care but I just need to vent a bit.


    I’m scared. Ever since Chemo, I just wake up everyday unsure if I’m going to make it to night time. Thanks to the chemo, and what was once every 6 weeks, to 4 weeks, every two weeks, then once a week, then it got to once a day. I was learning to cope. Today, I had my heart skip a beat 6 times through the day. Every time it feels like I’m being punched in the chest. I can’t breath so I start panting. And on several occasions, I’ve gotten dizzy and even nearly blacked out.

    I’ve brought this up to my doctors but thanks to Covid. Unless my heart just stops, I’m on a back burner when it comes to my care. And let’s not even get me started on masks and the shit that keeps happening to me when I leave the house.


    I’ve been seeing a psychiatrist in hopes of dealing with this shit but i don’t know if it’s helping or not. I honestly feel like I could die tomorrow and only my wife would mourn. Chemo has really fucked me up and I was fucked to begin with.

    The wife got a disability scare with them making it sound like they would just cut her off without warning. That’s sent me down a spiral of depression and self hatred. Been really thinking “Is my life worth it?” I could never off myself cause I’ve been through too much to take that route but I just wish I had someone to talk to, unbiased, guilt free, who understands what I’ve gone through. I just wish I was normal enough to be able to provide for my sick wife. That’s my only goal in life is making sure she’s happy. After planning my funeral, looking at coffins, and all that shit. If I’m meant to die young, I atleast want her to greatly enjoy our time together.

    And I know this is petty and stupid but I am so angry at my friends wife. When I was on my deathbed before transplant, and even on my deathbed during cancer. He promised me that no matter what, he would name his first born son after me. It was a source of great comfort since I can’t have kids and he told me how much I mean to him and how honoured he’d be to be able to call his kid “Randy”. That was the plan for 11 years.

    His bitch of a wife who knew of our arrangement, waited till he was asleep after the delivery and gave its first name “Grey”. AFTER 50 FUCKING SHADES. He’s apologized but that doesn’t make it hurt any less.


    I’m sorry for this rant. I don’t want cancer to come back. That scares me more than chronic rejection for my lungs.


    Anyway, if anyone actually read this. Thank you.

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    I lost my mom to cancer. I saw how much of a toll chemo took on her both physically and mentally. She was the most strong-minded person I’ve ever met and yet still by the end her whole mentality had changed. Her soul was sucked out of her.

    I’m sure after going through something like that and surviving it that it is 100% normal to be scared. Terrified even. So in that sense you are “normal”.

    What I do know is that your mindset plays an extremely important role in your physical health. Stress and anxiety are the two last things you need right now. I’m sure its extremely difficult, but it’d be best for you and your wife if you can try to find some mental peace. I don’t know what calms you, but distraction is always the best remedy.

    Stay busy. Try and enjoy life as much as you can. Nothing in life is guaranteed. Worrying doesn’t fix anything.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Myrrh_Quetz View Post
    I honestly feel like I could die tomorrow
    If it makes you feel any better, that is potentially true for every person ever. No one knows when their time is up, so don't waste too much time worrying about it. The expression is "paying interest on a debt you may not even owe".

    As for your friend's wife, that is some S-tier level bitch audacity. I would be annoyed for the shitty name choice alone.

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    If I promised my friend that I'd name my firstborn after him (without talking to my wife) and she slapped the silly off my face when I told her later, that "I fell asleep and dat bitch named him " line would be the kind of lame excuse I'd use when the chickens came home to roost.

    Naming children after people that are still alive is a bit creepy, so at least you dodged that bullet.

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    Juniors, grandparents, and middle names are the exception to the creepiness.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Seraph View Post
    If it makes you feel any better, that is potentially true for every person ever. No one knows when their time is up, so don't waste too much time worrying about it. The expression is "paying interest on a debt you may not even owe".
    I know this is coming from a place of trying to help but that logic isn’t helpful. The best way I explain it to people who say that, is that, you’re driving on a road. You’re able to see 500 feet infront of you and as far as you can tell. The roads are clear. Me? I’m driving on the wrong side of the road with cars driving at me, head on. I’ve already died twice and have narrowly avoided death a dozen times. I wish it was as that simple.

    I might think about death a lot and I don’t want to. I get weekly phone calls from my doctors telling me about my various health issues and what those all entail. I mean, have you ever planned your own funeral?

    I apologize if this comes off as aggressive or attacking. I’m not trying to do that. That’s just a very common line I’m given and I know it’s meant to help but it just makes me think about how lucky others are.

    I’m trying my best to busy myself. I often watch two movies at once and play a portable video game to help calm down my mind, I sleep with headphones in and various TV shows/Movies going to keep my mind from drifting as I go to sleep, as everyone knows, right before bed is when those thoughts love to creep up and fuck you in the ass.

    And trust me when I say, just because I am terrified, I don’t let that stop me from enjoying life. If anything, it forces me to enjoy it even more. The only challenge with that is the full body pain from the joys of Chemo. Nothing on this earth can prep you for how fucking awful it is. Even 18 months out. I still have horrible side effects.

    The heart thing, this muscle cramp thing, my teeth are basically melting, it now takes me roughly 45 seconds to even start to piss, I have 95% control over my bowels(and that’s really gross on its own). In just under a year, I’ve ruined 10 different expensive pairs of underwear.


    I’m just tired, I’m sad, I hate myself more than anyone on this site can hate me. I truly believe I’m worthless. My wife can do infinitely better but I’m greedy and want her in my life, I hate that I keep surviving yet other people, better people, keep dying, my family and friends treat me like a convicted felon. My mother and two brothers have accused me of faking cancer or just want me to die of cancer, people I considered good friends called me a selfish piece of shit while I was going through chemo because I was unable to meet one of their newborns. I have next to no medical personal in my corner. When it comes to pain relief, I’m treated like I was convicted of stealing a narcotic script pad and wrote myself pills. And I know most of you couldn’t care less about me.

    This isn’t a pity post. A woo is me post, I’m not seeking attention. I’m just venting. Typing like this has always comforted me. I’m not a journal person, I don’t do audio tapes. I just want to vent. And hey. If one of you happen to have some zen secret to having me chill the fuck out, I’d never say no to that. I apologize if I annoyed anyone with these posts. Give it a day or two. Someone will post a fail, and a discussion will be had about that and like 2 pages will added.

    I’m sorry. I just...need a break. I....just...I wish I knew.

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    And how about some random fail and not just whatever I posted.

    A few weeks ago, my mom calls me and tells me to go to get to her place. ASAP. She’s making it sound like someone died. Wife and I rush over there. My mom, bought, with cash, a camping trailer and a Truck to hull it. “I bought it with you in mind. You’ve been talking about wanting to take a road trip. Now we have this.”

    She spent 70,000 dollars cash. On an impulsive buy. We wanted to use it but my main concern was driving it. I haven’t driven a truck with like a 50 foot trailer before. Before I got the chance. My idiot of an older brother “stole” it. Went to one of our lakes that actually had(at the time this happened) a horrible and massive covid out break.

    I found out cause my mom called me demanding I go to Emerg and say my goodbyes to him as he was diagnosed with Covid. They didn’t know if he would live out the night. My mom on the other hand, decides, now when her son is supposed to be inches from dying, would be a great time to bleach the truck and trailer, so that I could use it.

    I of course didn’t believe my mom about my older brother but I acted like I did. She then tells me that she has Covid from cleaning the trailer. I asked how she knew and she said “I just know”. I yelled at her and said “JUST TWO MONTHS AGO YOU WANTED TO GO THROUGH A DRIVE THRU COVID TEST SITE CAUSE YOU WERE BORED”. And now she’s refusing testing(cause it would prove she’s lying.

    After that, I decided to call the hospital my idiot older brother was at. Oh and before I go on. He had a wife and a like 13 Month old baby who IS LIVING WITH MY MOM. The hospital informs me they sent him home.

    I text him to see what’s up.(Frankly. I don’t care. I was honestly hoping he was dying). Texting wasn’t good enough. He decided to call me and make up all this bullshit. I have him on speaker so he’s speaking to a Nurse, and a person who was raise with a respiratory disease. Tells us he was on 17 litres of Oxygen. And some other crap but sent him home after 8 hours after the hospital. After the wife and I called him on some of his BS. He was “suddenly very tired” and had to go.

    I haven’t spoken to him since. I’m pretty sure my mom is still faking her Covid. Which is great for me cause then she is unable to come around me.


    How’s that for a real fail?

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    We really need to form a insane mothers club and just share stories. There's a few of us who have the literal definition of Karen's as mothers. Kind of scary how common of a disease Karen is.

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    don't got any zen, my dude. least nothing new, and my zen has never seemed to be helpful. if it were me, i'd be comforted to know i was heard and that people care. which you are. and i do. just dunno how to help.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Myrrh_Quetz View Post
    I apologize if this comes off as aggressive or attacking. I’m not trying to do that. That’s just a very common line I’m given and I know it’s meant to help but it just makes me think about how lucky others are.
    Not a problem, don't fret. Just offering some perspective. "You get to see every other person's highlight reel, but live your own life behind the scenes." You seem to be doing a fine job given your situation. Keep your chin up.

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    quoted 20 bucks for some antibiotics for my tooth infection; get to the pharmacy $68.17

    Then i get back and the office who prescribed it said they didn't get the coupon in time but if i didn't open the medicine yet they can get me a refund and then apply the coupon

    After putting me on hold for 20 mins which I took the medicine while on hold

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    Night before my dad's funeral and Astylla is taking our oldest kitty to the vet hospital as it looks like she was telling us it's time.

    Sent from my SM-G975U using Tapatalk

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    I could have bought an 11 pull and have 1000 gems left over, but all I got was this silly title.

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    Me at 5:15am driving up to the post office to mail something on the way to work.

    Drive up mail box padlocked up...

    Curse that asshole postmaster general making me get out of my car to mail something.

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    They started doing that at my local post office a year ago. All day long.
    And until covid happened, whenever I'd walk by I'd get people asking "hey, could you drop this in the other side for me?"

    What the fuck is even up with doing that in the first place? It predates DeJoy.

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