Random Fail FWP Thread 2: Something, Something, Your Mother's a Whore.

[Myrrh_Quetz]

I debated about posting this but I need to vent and get it out of my system.

My cancer doctor called today and told me I have to come in for an urgent appointment(No matter what over the last year,
I’ve been getting monthly letters that I’m not allowed near the hospital as the chance of me getting covid and dying are stupid high, so a meeting in person is a big deal), tomorrow(today). I’m honestly fucking scared. I haven’t spoken to my Cancer doc in over a year and even for phone appointments, all I did was talk to her Nurse. For her to call me, is not good news, at all.

I’m going to have a horrible mental break down. Cancer is fucking bullshit and I’ve been through in life for a dozen life times. And then ontop of all that, my body just keeps getting worse from the chemo side effects i had two years ago. I’m not getting better, I’m only getting worse.

I just....I miss who and what I was. I guess I’ll try to get a little bit of sleep and calm down. I know I’ve always talked about my death and nothings come of it, but I am truly scared and this could mean my cancer is back. It’s most likely nothing, probably something really small and I’m worrying for nothing but the brain is a real cunt.

I apologize if I annoy people with my posts. I’m sorry I am who I am. Bane keeps telling me to stop putting myself down as it doesn’t help but in situations like this, where the mind goes to dark places.

[Mayareira]

Could it just be a regular control appointment since it has been a year and COVID-19 cases are more stable than before?

Mind always seeks to wander towards the worst case at times like this, it is understandable. Keep us posted.

[Melena]

Skipped lunch today at work as I was still full from breakfast after 1pm. I'm now absolutely starving and still have an hour before I can leave.

[Myrrh_Quetz]

So, after needlessly giving myself anxiety last night. My Doctor called me today and told me I have to wait til monday as she is currently. I did ask if my appointment was anything bad and was told "Its nothing bad but it is still urgent", so I unno.

Times like this I wish I could smoke pot or get drunk. Stressed like a motherfucker in this bitch.



Just to add. I just had a fail happen that isn’t some horrible life or death thing about my life. I was asleep, I like 5% woke up, I was thirsty. I grabbed an Pepsi that I keep on bed side table.

So I grabbed it no took off the cap, I tilt it ever so slightly to just get a sip. My hand decided to have an insane spasm I proceeded to dump damn near all the Pepsi on my face. A lot of it went up my nose, and some went down my wind pipe. And worst of all. My face, neck, ears, pillow and blanket are in dire need of a heavy cleaning.