Who's your servers' Lance?

[Whytewolf]

stuff

First off, I seriously don't know how you keep track of all this shit. The detail that you remember things with is just crazy at times.

Anyway, for the most part, you're right. I spent way too much time in Antagonistic to be a 'good' ls member. 90% is a bit of an exaggeration, but that doesn't change the fact. Originally I had this crazy idea that I would get all my friends to join the same endgame shell. That was OBVIOUSLY never gonna happen, lol. But then I figured I could join a big shell and split time with my social. As you pointed out, that just doesn't work well either. Some people can pull it off, but I couldn't. I understand moreso now that an endgame shell doesn't give a shit about whether one (new) member gets to spend time with his/her friends or not. They are there to get the job done. Hate to be redundant, but naive, unrealistic ideals, etc.

I understand that the time I was in TG was certainly a hectic one. I was there for the time attack fafhogg that spawned the 'waists' thread on KI. Good times.

While you can honestly say there were no 'mandatory' camps, you certainly can't say no one was pressured pretty hard to attend. While my memory isn't as good as yours is apparantly, I do remember you going a bit /emo. There was talk of you quitting because you were sick of trying to motivate people to do shit they didn't want to do or something along those lines. People show up for a couple camps, you get adaberk and ridill, and suddenly everythings fine? For all the people who looked up to you in your shell, that was some serious pressure I'm sure. The jury is still out deciding if that was a ploy to get attendance up or if you were being honest. Either way it worked apparantly. But as we agreed earlier, it takes that sort of shit to keep a successful shell going. I'm not really sure what we're arguing here anymore.

Maybe all I noticed was the 'mean' side of you in our casual interaction and that skewed my perception of all of our subsequent encounters. I've heard from other people that you're actually a decent guy, but I never saw it.

I don't blame anyone for the choices I've made. They were just that, my choices. I never meant any of this as personal attacks, just kind of observations on the way things work.

Basically just musing now. Oh well, personal insight is fun sometimes.

[Demyn]

LOL.

Do me a favor, compliment or not, dont drag my name into this bullshit. I do what I do and it works. People will love me or they will hate me but my goal at the end of the day has always been the same. That goal being to make sure the shell is taking steps forward rather than steps back.

As for the people that left recently, they had their reasons and all of them are flawed due to other shady shit going on behind the scenes. Either way thats their bag and has no part in this conversation.

[Ryko]

I did flip out over the nidhogg that dropped keftenk's adaberk, and I did basically say I was going to quit because we had busted our asses to kill a handful fafnirs and a couple low % nidhoggs before then and we had enough to try to kill it lower than 36% and we didn't take it. Tens and I sat there arguing our asses off on vent because he said we couldnt handle it and I was like "What the hell is the fucking point in camping if we're gonna puss out at a moment of opportunity"? After all that time trying our damnedest to prove we could cut it there just to cockblock ourselves only for that alliance to get the one nidhogg abjuration it got at all during their whole assbackwards partnership. If I had my way, that adaberk would have been mine. But whatever, shit happens, it was early in the day and we admittedly didn't have a full alliance at the time. We claimed the next one like 5 days later and got therin's Kbody like 3 minutes before servers went down (lot of good that does us now) and my ridill after it came up since it was already popped by the time we got in.

It wasn't a ploy, at that point, I had done everything I wanted to do at the time. My argument at the time was "who the fuck cares if we wipe, it's exp, you lose more by not trying." people kept on saying how we couldnt handle it, couldnt handle it, couldnt handle it and my response finally came to "fine, if that's how you feel, there's no point in even bothering. Got nothing left I wanna do, fuck it, I'll just not play." They then switched their tune to "look we can do it, it was just a bad time. We will do it, just be patient." so I did. All that was left was bagging that nidhogg kill 100-0 and at that point I had nothing to do with anything afterwards, we got our momentum, people realized that shit wasn't that much harder than an NQ, and confidence boosted. They proved me wrong, and I honestly couldn't have been happier to be wrong in a long ass time.

I did push people to prioritize big events foremost because when you're still competing for claim or learning how to handle things, you could use every body that's available. As time passed I showed up with the people that always showed up and we did our thing because beyond a bard, a tank, a healer, a skillchain, and some bursts, you don't need much else for fafnir. People got so used to the job getting done without having to make those annoying early camps or even showing up to the early long-ass tiamat fights that eventually attendance tapered off and when we finally got competition again, there was barely anyone around to "hold down the fort" so to speak, people were like "whatever, we got a ton off of faf, we're ignoring sky, let's do sky again" so we did, and left aery alone of our own volition for a bit. When I started getting pissed about it, nystul, ayn, and bongo basically told me off and told me to just take the pearl off and chill. As a result, I was shell less for 6 weeks. That was the absolute closest the shell had ever been to needing to repearl, as the option wasn't even considered with my recent 10 week hiatus, only coming back recently and playing maybe 8 hours a week total.

I really don't know how I remember the stuff I do, or why. I just have a knack for keeping track of obscure crap that should otherwise be of no use to anyone. As for how you view my personality, that's entirely up to you. From afar I seem like a big dickhead to most people, which is fine. I have a bad habit of making fun of everything I can just because I can, and I don't exactly blame people on the outside for thinking that the only time I smile is when I'm laughing at someone. Of the people who left the shell, only like 2 of them ever bothered to talk to me beyond what was necessary to get an event done. One was xanthus, and we get along fine now, and the other is Kregon, and that was after he went on some mad rant about how I'm some lunch-table sitting, rhetoric spitting e-thug because I blasted his girlfriend verbally after biting my tongue for a year and a half. *shrug* I can't change how people view me, I can only be myself and leave the personality profiling to the people around me.

I so much didn't take exception to what people think about me, some of it is so off the wall at this point that it's hard to pay much mind to any of it. I do get rather irked when some of the others are dragged into it though. Others that are likely looking out for everyone else's ideas a little to a lot more than they sometimes let on. Of the 2 of us, bongo's not the bad guy. Ayn's not some grandfathering iron fisted two-faced evil monarch ploying to use the shell for his personal means. Nystul's not some totalitarian evil asshole that does what he wants without triple guessing himself. When I finally responded to some accusations about the shell, it wasn't even the ones about me. If someone wants to clear something up with me, if they don't ask me for their self then it's their loss, so be it. I guess I get antsy when "the leadership" is brought into question over things that they likely were doing for other people's sakes to begin with. On the outside people probably go "omg nystul took an adaberk? What an abuse of power/how unfair" (even some people in the shell thought this) not knowing that he's probably one of the least self-serving members in the shell, going out of his way to log another character in, run him to aery, and lot an ebody abjuration for that character that would have otherwise gone to him had he not done it. Ayn's been accused of getting his girlfriend into the shell with no application at all, not true in the slightest (I even moved it to the public section and probably forgot to place it back in the archives). He gets played off as some coldhearted self-serving person by some of the people who left only for -one- conversation afterwards to cause them to wonder if what they were thinking was even the whole story. I don't mind accusations, I hate how misinformed a lot of them are.

[Beckwin]

tl;dr

[Ryko]

Like you have anything better to do.

[Beckwin]

the new yugioh is out.

and I'm about to duo ixmnk right now.

[aurik]

If I was still in school I'd print that out and hand it in as an essay.

Edit: read it, good stuff, but Ayn is indeed some grandfathering iron fisted two-faced evil monarch ploying to use the shell for his personal means, he tells me about it at our weekly Evil Genius Chess-and-Tea gatherings.

[Toth]

Why are you guys bringing Fairy drama into this? Chiz is enough of a Lance to make up for the whole server and this TG crap seems old and rather dry.

[Ryko]

While I got dragged into this shit thanks to you opening your damn mouth, neither side of the current conversation has to do with you. Go talk to your fucking puppet, at least it bothers listening to you.

[NynJa]

lolChiz

[Toth]

While I got dragged into this shit thanks to you opening your damn mouth, neither side of the current conversation has to do with you. Go talk to your fucking puppet, at least it bothers listening to you.

Whatever

[Ryko]

(*'3')

[Toth]

I don't know you think I said I know everything but its rather contradictory that you of all people talk down to people for 'opening their damn mouth'. Don't blame me if other people are bitching about old wounds to you as I am not trying to incite you or bug you at all.

[Ryko]

It's not opening their mouths that bother me, it's the fact that you're just as misinformed as any other braindead reject who would bother rambling. Stick to poof and kinesis, at least that shit does the hard/busy work for you. You wanna be outspoken? By all means, go for it, but stop being such a fucking mongoloid while you're at it, k sparky?

[Toth]

Misinformed about what? I'm not even participating in Whytewolf drama Forgive me for trying to rerail the thread.

[shandi235]

i didnt think my name still was tossed about these days lol

kind of a warm feeling inside to see people still remember me

I do remember back in hRO days me and aers talking about ffxi... i almost switched over to his server but then i met a few people in my server that made me wanna stay.. i.e. Londeyr and Zealvaldur :D

do i still play? not really... I thought i could play more this semester but i got a full time job doing sociology case studies. its pretty cool i basically get to sit in a burger king that has a broken door all day and see how many people try to open the door and fail, open the door - fail then try again, or just ignore it. Sitting in various food places and sitting there watching people and getting free food for it too while getting paid between 50-150$ an hour... That's where it's at

Sounds boring to most but its interesting to me :D

I've also dabbled a little into world of warcraft with my brother and a friend from AZ but i dunno how long ill be around... it'll be more of a past time than the way i lived and breathed FFXI for a few years.

It's good to see that your still around aers and you too ryko i thought u were quitting a while back i remember some people telling me that you were really into PSU but oh well. Your parallel universe thing made me laugh heh, the shear sarcastics of it was pretty neat

anyway im done rambling on... you all have a good night

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[Ryko]

My interest in MMO's in general is pretty much dead, I barely play either atm and wow just really doesn't catch my eye.

and I'm actually just tired of watching the would-be's of server drama having the accuracy of a blindfolded bukakke session.

[Andrinne]

While I got dragged into this shit thanks to you opening your damn mouth, neither side of the current conversation has to do with you. Go talk to your fucking puppet, at least it bothers listening to you.

LOL <3 Ryko.

So I must admit, I don't read here very much but I was chatting with a friend after seeing this thread and said to him: "Players from other servers who read Blue Gartr don't really think Toth is like representative of Fairy do they?"

I gotta say there is a certain LOL factor to Toth pointing out morons.

[Chreman]

What the hell. . . A happy ending to a drama thread?

Fuck this, someone make a racist crack at ryko and get this shit going, i still got half a tub of popcorn dammit

[Swatt]

My interest in MMO's in general is pretty much dead, I barely play either atm and wow just really doesn't catch my eye.

and I'm actually just tired of watching the would-be's of server drama having the accuracy of a blindfolded bukakke session.

the point of a bukkake session would be to spray everywhere. so you don't need +acc for that.