I Have Never Been More Alone

[Krye]

My family abandoned me, but I guess this isn't really anything new. They abandoned me years ago when they subjected me to their emotional abuse and guilt trip mind games. My father was always in and out of prison, my mother was whoring around having affairs, and my step-dad never felt anything more affectionate than hatred towards me. When you really think about it, kicking me out is probably the nicest thing they ever did for me.

My friend took me in, but he's grown tired of me before and cut off contact, it's only a matter of time before it happens again. He always finds some cute girl and she inevitably hates me. They always feel threatened by me, jealous that I brighten him up so much. He's a whole different, happier person when I'm around, and they can't stand it. She'll give him the choice of me or her, and of course he'll choose her.

All my best friend ever wants to do anymore is get high. We both got into drugs pretty heavily senior year, but after a series of almost overdosing, and some pretty horrible mental side effects, I cut it out and went clean. He doesn't want to follow in my foot steps, he can't handle life and he sees drugs as his only escape.

And you, you're all enthralled with the idea of Krye, but none of you care about the real me. You don't know the pain that I go through, you couldn't possibly understand the anguish. You're all living your petty happy lives, but as worthless as you are at least you are ignorant enough to be blind to your flaws. You can't experience this torment because you somehow skew your perception of reality so extremely that you think you are perfect, you can't even entertain the notion that you are anything less. Well I hope you're having fun in your fantasy land, somebody has to feel the joy that I will never be able to comprehend.

[Mizango]

Nigga you gay. Nah but for real, throw on some Simple plan and get bout it, bout it.

Ask yourself, what would Master P do?

[Dimmauk]

My family abandoned me, but I guess this isn't really anything new. They abandoned me years ago when they subjected me to their emotional abuse and guilt trip mind games. My father was always in and out of prison, my mother was whoring around having affairs, and my step-dad never felt anything more affectionate than hatred towards me. When you really think about it, kicking me out is probably the nicest thing they ever did for me.

My friend took me in, but he's grown tired of me before and cut off contact, it's only a matter of time before it happens again. He always finds some cute girl and she inevitably hates me. They always feel threatened by me, jealous that I brighten him up so much. He's a whole different, happier person when I'm around, and they can't stand it. She'll give him the choice of me or her, and of course he'll choose her.

All my best friend ever wants to do anymore is get high. We both got into drugs pretty heavily senior year, but after a series of almost overdosing, and some pretty horrible mental side effects, I cut it out and went clean. He doesn't want to follow in my foot steps, he can't handle life and he sees drugs as his only escape.

And you, you're all enthralled with the idea of Krye, but none of you care about the real me. You don't know the pain that I go through, you couldn't possibly understand the anguish. You're all living your petty happy lives, but as worthless as you are at least you are ignorant enough to be blind to your flaws. You can't experience this torment because you somehow skew your perception of reality so extremely that you think you are perfect, you can't even entertain the notion that you are anything less. Well I hope you're having fun in your fantasy land, somebody has to feel the joy that I will never be able to comprehend.

Kry more?

You should go on a walkabout, and search for Jesus. Only God can save you now.

[Elites]

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[Day]

k

This is the kind of bullshit I'm talking about right here.

[Day]

http://www.bluegartr.com/forum/74955-look-okay.html

[Elites]

I see I see, life is hard yes. Not all of us are rich and living happy lives neither but some of us don't complain about it, taking garbage like drugs into your system shows immaturity and lack of willing to do anything in the first place. You quit though, so now goto College and make something out of yourself, you don't need your parents for that.

[The Stig]

Your story turns me on. Want to be my slave?

[Dimmauk]

http://www.bluegartr.com/forum/74955-look-okay.html

Stop being such a Spam forum snob.

[Day]

Not a snob.

[Olo401]

if you only knew how not alone you are in your loneliness...

ok i'm sayin way too much now.

[Shiroikage]

I want to make a post about being unhappy with things now.

[Day]

Go for it bro. It's easy if you try.

[Mizango]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Z50o6qmb2w

For real, check this song out Krye. I know nigger this, nigger that but he's lonely too! But unlike you, I actually like this song and don't with it would die already. Smoke a joint and lounge to this shit, you have to get past the nigger part and listen to the words though.

This my fuckin jam nigga, bump dat shiz.

[Brill Weave]

I'm going to slap the taste out of your mouth if you don't start talking like a carbon based lifeform Miz. Krye, get over it and sleep with him already.

[Day]

Thats racist.

[Brill Weave]

Personal attack? And shut up whitey.

[Brill Weave]

White devils like you always trying to keep a brotha down.

[Mizango]

I'm going to slap the taste out of your mouth if you don't start talking like a carbon based lifeform Miz. Krye, get over it and sleep with him already.

Carbon? Nigga I smoke menthols and green. U trippin n shit dawg.

[Tricen]

You mean you've never been more FAGGOT.