Suicidal thoughts

[Howard Roark]

ask miz, he'll figure it out real fast

[Elites]

ugh I was feeling better last night up until I woke up this morning, every morning has been hell for me. I have these stupid fucking dreams of us and I snap out of it feeling like total shit. Then I have to stay up and cant go back to sleep with this early sun hitting my face making me feel worst.

[BRP]

Tell me Elites, what the fuck do you expect to get posting your leaking brain garbage here? Like anyone really gives a shit passed a few "kill yourself" posts. This isn't your livejournal and we are not your subscribers.

[Charismatic]

char don't know about my yuki kajiura

or cuchi shakira

I know they can't fuck with chingochango

[Charismatic]

See you in 3 months Elites. Stop trying to feel better - nothing you can do (talking to her, not talking to her, crying on the internet, crying IRL, fucking other girls, getting high, offing yourself, whatever) NOTHING is going to make you feel better. Stop trying to feel better.

Stop trying to feel better.












Stop trying to feel better.


Got it?

See you in 3 months - enjoy how shitty they will be.

Damn son, I should have made some BG advice threads a while back. If I would have listened to your shit I would be in a better spot. I tried fuckin a few bitches to get over my shit and still felt like crap and I just dropped that act quick. Thought not talkin to a bitch would do something but damn man... it's like you say, ain't shit you can do until you just come to that realization that bitches ain't shit but hoes and tricks.
I have niggas telling me this shit in all of my music and you know, your boys tell you this shit as you grow up but you know I respected my authority figures and they told me women should be respected and treated well and this and that and the other. But life is teaching me a whole other lesson.


Anyway, I'm soakin up this knowledge like a motherfucker. I am going to stack chedda, fuck hoes and do it up right. I will still break bread with a bitch because you know, ain't nothin wrong with spendin' a little to get what you want but shit... this last month or two has been the greatest turnaround I have ever experienced. I am seeing shit in a whole new light.

[Ohaigaiz]

This is going to be long, but I would never waste my time before expressing what I'm going through to a person or a forum..

So you were all right, about a month ago I posted about how my girlfriend of 2 years were ignoring me while she was on vacation in India. She was supposed to be due back last Friday on the 14th, she sent me a msg about 3 weeks ago at last assuring me nothing is wrong between us and that she still loves me a lot and can't wait to come back. I was being patient, believed and just waited for the 14th to arrive until then and was also relieved that nothing was in fact wrong between us. So I get everything ready last Thursday the day before she's due, had some money saved up so we could go out and have our time again like the way we used to almost everyday in the past 2 years.

Friday came, she wasn't back yet it seems in the afternoon..I thought maybe the flight is taking a bit longer, Saturday morning and she still hasn't come back. Later Saturday evening, low and behold I found her online on AIM but has me blocked on my regular SN (IM'ed her from another one instead). Told her "Welcome back..:\" I get a reply saying she's not back, she's still in India. At this point I had figured something is terribly wrong. She said she's not coming back, because of her abusive father here. Theres alot of history between this father and her+her mother, he's a drunk and he has alot of temper issues. He stayed back while they went to India in July.

At this point I was panicking as I thought this wasn't possible, she then told me to move on. The way she was speaking was not the way she ever spoke to me before ever. She then signed off without a word. I didn't know what to do, it was all so sudden and crushed all my hopes into thinking she was going to come back and loved me this whole time (from the msg she sent me 3 weeks before). I also didn't believe she could be in India forever, so I waited.

The next time she came on, I gave her a website which if she clicked and she did, would bring up her IP results..I checked it and the results were this 76.16.108.235 76 - Lookup IP address, Geolocation, IP address tracking. States she's in the US at Schererville, Indiana. Which makes perfect sense because that was the number one place she'd mention all the time if they had move out last year..her relatives live there. I told her this fact about her IP, she didn't know what an IP number was and still proceeded to lie to me about how she's in India and got into a car accident broke her leg, and is seeing a shrink...the more I kept mentioning how I know the truth the more she got madder and kept telling me I'm wrong..we all know the IP doesn't lie at least to the extent of being in the country or not.

Just to not anger her further and never speaking to me again, I decided to go along with her story as at this point I just wanted to know where this is heading..She started to spurt out things out of anger and said she hated me, said she was depressed being with me all these things which make no sense because she was infact very happy the month before she left while she was with me..I Know the father is an issue here for them not returning but I'm puzzled as to why she's talking that way to me as if she really wants me out of her life now in a split second.

I passed her house here a few times recently and I noticed their father getting kicked out because he was trashing the place, cutting the window nets..the landlord was pissed and decided to kick him out but all their stuff still remains in there. It's now been a week since her due date of returning and she hasn't come online since Monday..she told me to stop sending her messages to her facebook but I told her that's the only way I have of reaching her. She told me she needs time to recover and she'll talk to me when she's ready. I respect her, I told her I'll listen and that's all I've been doing now, not trying to bother her and even believing the story she's telling me about still being in India (I'm assuming she's not telling me the truth because she's afraid I might spit out stuff to her dad of her whereabouts).

So for the past week I haven't been able to adjust, no sleep, no food and definitely no comfort in mind. I lost all sense in reality and I can't seem to get over this at all, I was under such a wrong impression from her msg three weeks ago that it got me excited over nothing. My love for her is still there and this is the worst part, I made her the center of my life and I basically can't see past anything anymore. I wake up in the morning feeling like I could unload a bullet into my head without hesitating, I wake up from dreams of her returning and everything being back to normal but it gets crushed as soon as I wake up. I have practically zero friends to lay back on as well, my parents work all day and neglect me enough to not know a thing about my life.

I'm turning 22 this September and I really feel like I'm on my last string of living a healthy life, I just don't fear in killing myself at all and it's becoming scarier by the day. I have never expressed my feelings to anyone like this before and definitely not on a forum, but this is the one time I feel I needed to do so because I have no other direction right now. I want to message her on facebook telling her how I'm really feeling right now and what I'm going through, basically being down to earth and that I'm close to practically ending myself with all jokes aside..the only thing stopping me from messaging her is the fact that she told me not to and give her time to recover till she's ready to talk to me. I don't know what to do, this pain won't stop as much as I try to not think about it.

cool story bro

Spoiler: show

do it on webcam

[Ohaigaiz]

she sent me a msg about 3 weeks ago at last assuring me nothing is wrong between us and that she still loves me a lot and can't wait to come back

just an fyi for future girlfriends or just to know before you hit the bucket, girls and guys hate this. my girlfriend does this shit to me all the time. 'call me later, if you want to', to which i respond with, 'i'll call you later, if you want me to'. she's let up a bit, but i just make fun of her stupid ass when she said shit like that. i can't say 'ok i won't call you' because she takes it too seriously. it's a bit ridiculous and annoying. good thing she has datass.jpg going on.

the more you act like you're worried and the more you whine about your relationship the more you're going to push away your girlfriend. seriously, it's not a joke, bitches love confidence. be confident in your relationship and not so wishy-washy/clingy/annoying/distrusting and your girlfriend will be too. if you can't do that, enjoy your hand.

[Kuya]

chingochango don't know the first thing about this mango

[Brill Weave]

Isn't love grand?

[Howard Roark]

"Oh, to be young and to feel love's keen sting."

~Albus Dumbledore

[Ohaigaiz]

This is going to be long, but I would never waste my time before expressing what I'm going through to a person or a forum..

So you were all right, about a month ago I posted about how my girlfriend of 2 years were ignoring me while she was on vacation in India. She was supposed to be due back last Friday on the 14th, she sent me a msg about 3 weeks ago at last assuring me nothing is wrong between us and that she still loves me a lot and can't wait to come back. I was being patient, believed and just waited for the 14th to arrive until then and was also relieved that nothing was in fact wrong between us. So I get everything ready last Thursday the day before she's due, had some money saved up so we could go out and have our time again like the way we used to almost everyday in the past 2 years.

Friday came, she wasn't back yet it seems in the afternoon..I thought maybe the flight is taking a bit longer, Saturday morning and she still hasn't come back. Later Saturday evening, low and behold I found her online on AIM but has me blocked on my regular SN (IM'ed her from another one instead). Told her "Welcome back..:\" I get a reply saying she's not back, she's still in India. At this point I had figured something is terribly wrong. She said she's not coming back, because of her abusive father here. Theres alot of history between this father and her+her mother, he's a drunk and he has alot of temper issues. He stayed back while they went to India in July.

At this point I was panicking as I thought this wasn't possible, she then told me to move on. The way she was speaking was not the way she ever spoke to me before ever. She then signed off without a word. I didn't know what to do, it was all so sudden and crushed all my hopes into thinking she was going to come back and loved me this whole time (from the msg she sent me 3 weeks before). I also didn't believe she could be in India forever, so I waited.

The next time she came on, I gave her a website which if she clicked and she did, would bring up her IP results..I checked it and the results were this 76.16.108.235 76 - Lookup IP address, Geolocation, IP address tracking. States she's in the US at Schererville, Indiana. Which makes perfect sense because that was the number one place she'd mention all the time if they had move out last year..her relatives live there. I told her this fact about her IP, she didn't know what an IP number was and still proceeded to lie to me about how she's in India and got into a car accident broke her leg, and is seeing a shrink...the more I kept mentioning how I know the truth the more she got madder and kept telling me I'm wrong..we all know the IP doesn't lie at least to the extent of being in the country or not.

Just to not anger her further and never speaking to me again, I decided to go along with her story as at this point I just wanted to know where this is heading..She started to spurt out things out of anger and said she hated me, said she was depressed being with me all these things which make no sense because she was infact very happy the month before she left while she was with me..I Know the father is an issue here for them not returning but I'm puzzled as to why she's talking that way to me as if she really wants me out of her life now in a split second.

I passed her house here a few times recently and I noticed their father getting kicked out because he was trashing the place, cutting the window nets..the landlord was pissed and decided to kick him out but all their stuff still remains in there. It's now been a week since her due date of returning and she hasn't come online since Monday..she told me to stop sending her messages to her facebook but I told her that's the only way I have of reaching her. She told me she needs time to recover and she'll talk to me when she's ready. I respect her, I told her I'll listen and that's all I've been doing now, not trying to bother her and even believing the story she's telling me about still being in India (I'm assuming she's not telling me the truth because she's afraid I might spit out stuff to her dad of her whereabouts).

So for the past week I haven't been able to adjust, no sleep, no food and definitely no comfort in mind. I lost all sense in reality and I can't seem to get over this at all, I was under such a wrong impression from her msg three weeks ago that it got me excited over nothing. My love for her is still there and this is the worst part, I made her the center of my life and I basically can't see past anything anymore. I wake up in the morning feeling like I could unload a bullet into my head without hesitating, I wake up from dreams of her returning and everything being back to normal but it gets crushed as soon as I wake up. I have practically zero friends to lay back on as well, my parents work all day and neglect me enough to not know a thing about my life.

I'm turning 22 this September and I really feel like I'm on my last string of living a healthy life, I just don't fear in killing myself at all and it's becoming scarier by the day. I have never expressed my feelings to anyone like this before and definitely not on a forum, but this is the one time I feel I needed to do so because I have no other direction right now. I want to message her on facebook telling her how I'm really feeling right now and what I'm going through, basically being down to earth and that I'm close to practically ending myself with all jokes aside..the only thing stopping me from messaging her is the fact that she told me not to and give her time to recover till she's ready to talk to me. I don't know what to do, this pain won't stop as much as I try to not think about it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OaII3kUn5ug

[Kiarax]

"Oh, to be young and to feel love's keen sting."

~Albus Dumbledore

Lol.

[tyven]

i care about you elites. please let me know if there is anything i can do to help you through this tough time

[Brill Weave]

I'm challenging elites to a streetfight. Physical pain will eclipse emotional pain any day!

[Mizango]

"Oh, to be young and to feel love's keen sting."

~Albus Dumbledore

Howard you are off the chain man. I cant stop laughing at this.

[Ragnell]

Ill take Elites out for a drink

[Ragnell]

Then mug him

[tyven]

SHUT UP RAGGY

[Ragnell]

Naw

[tyven]

k