It's becoming increasingly difficult every day, but...
If I stay up long enough that I get really exhausted, if I listen to the right music, read the right stories, watch the right videos, and look at the right pictures, sometimes I can hit that switch that opens the floodgate...
And it feels good to let out all the pain. It's refreshing and it feels real in a world where everything and everyone is or strives to be plastic.
Sure, I'd love to be able to feel anything besides pain, but unfortunately I haven't been given that option, so this is the only release I havae...
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