I can't stand to look at myself. I bought this fucking camcorder to start vlogging but I never realized quite how hideous I was before because I couldn't look at myself from multiple perspectives. And I'm fucking sick all the time(probably AIDS from fucking nasty whores in the ass) so I have an annoying fucking congested voice 90% of the time. I don't know if I should try to get over it or just embrace my life of solitude. I think it might do wonders if I just fucking went with it because I can't love anything if I can't start by loving myself. My grandpa is dying and I don't even visit him because I look up to him so much and I'm scared he'll tell me how much of a disappointment I am(even though I know logically that he would never say that). My life has been consumed by hatred for as long as I can remember I want to become a better person maybe I should stop trying to hide behind this internet persona, stop hiding from the truth and embrace reality.
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