I love you fuckers

[Conrad]

I know all the emotional shit is going in the last thread, but I want to make sure people who don't read that thread can know. Some of you are huge jerkoffs and I hate you sometimes, but I've been reading or posting in this forum since 2005-2006 and there's bound to be a sense of community formed as a result. I've met some of my closest friends here.

I didn't know woozie too well, but some of you did and your reactions mean just as much to me. I just wanted to cut through the cynicism that prevails here for a moment. Thanks spam, keep being you.

[Charismatic]

Tomorrow is promised to no man, sometimes we get a reminder of that.
Being that this is at the forefront of my mind today (I'm sure you all feel the same) I have to say that I appreciate ya'll. That's why I've been coming here for years.

BG forums ain't shit without all of you.

Sad it takes an event like this to get us to let each other know we feel for one another but I'm not ashamed to do that today, hopefully we can do so more often without it being sappy BS.

[Kohan]

It's probably good for people to be sappy sometimes. I confess I've a hard time with it. I've never been an openly affectionate person. That doesn't mean I never get emotional, though. I definitely did today.

[Kohan]

I also took all of my dog's dinner kibble and a bunch of peanut butter and made it into a peanut butter ball. Figured I may as well show her some extra love today. She'll reward me with a huge steaming turd later, but it'll all be worth it.

[Rocl]

even me?????

[Abandon]

no

[Sera]

I also took all of my dog's dinner kibble and a bunch of peanut butter and made it into a peanut butter ball. Figured I may as well show her some extra love today. She'll reward me with a huge steaming turd later, but it'll all be worth it.

i am not sure i could do this without making a gigantic mess of my kitchen. plus, my dog would find a way to make me regret giving her access to that volume of peanut butter, i am certain of it.

[Rocl]

but seriously i usually joke about my internet friends but even someone as i donno, removed? no. idk, i admired the fuck out of woozie but and considered him a friend but we certainly weren't tight-- anywayss it's still boggling and messin' my head

i wasn't super close with him, not as much as like, let's say evens skirk mcguirk here, but it's affected me profoundly than some recent familial deaths (obviously not close family) more so because the somewhat removed nature of it all puts everything in perspective

this fuckin' badass could've been any of us, any of you, lord knows how many times shiro seemed super depressed and just fuck man

fuck

[The Blackrose]

Truth be told, I can't go into the General Discussion thread anymore. I'd been handling myself well until I hit Miz's post. Then I broke down hard.

Even though some of us were not as close to Woozie as say Miz and Abandon, he was always a superb person... To know that the world is out one person such as him is heart-wrenching.

Despite the shit that has gone down lately, I tend to think of the lot of you as family. That goes especially for the OGs. And Woozie was as OG as they came. That's what makes it hurt the most. I'm sure it would be the same for a number of other people in here.

Now to go polish off the rest of this bottle of red...

[Ryko]

You're all okay. Don't go doing anything drastic without reaching out to one of us. Probably not me, because I'd probably make a joke before realizing it's serious... or make a joke despite knowing it's serious. I mean don't get me wrong, I'd care and I probably remember everything about every time I've interacted with every single last one you, you're all an inspiration for my attempt to be a passable human being, I just deal with serious shit in a pretty irreverent way.

[Kohan]

You're all okay. Don't go doing anything drastic without reaching out to one of us. Probably not me, because I'd probably make a joke before realizing it's serious... or make a joke despite knowing it's serious. I mean don't get me wrong, I'd care and I probably remember everything about every time I've interacted with you, you're all a part and an inspiration for my attempt to be a passable human being, I just deal with serious shit in a pretty irreverent way.

Shit, I remember my first interaction with you on BG. It was you basically asking who the fuck I was when I posted in spam, and I told you I was an invader, and you accepted that. I'm sure I shared this story recently (as in within the last year or so). Then I posted that pic of the dick mugs, and you fuckers were all over that. (Fags.)

[Kohan]

Of course, a lot of our relationships have evolved significantly since then. I've kind of hinted at posting about personal details about myself on here, and I've shared my real name on BG a few times. Now I've collected a fair amount of you on my Facebook, which I'm normally pretty private about. That's a big deal for me—I'm a private person. I try to never talk about my personal challenges. Even with your invitation, I'm thinking, I can't. I would before the worst, though.

[Ryko]

I'm fairly sure Sera and I have discussed my leaving her for you or working out some sort of time-share scenario so y'know, that's always on the table.

(In the time share scenario, it'd be your time that is shared.)

[Kohan]

We'll discuss this later.

For now, I'm going to step into a local eatery, relax, and have a few drinks.

Once I'm done being distracted by my most excellent dog, that is.

[Seanr]

I'm not a man of many words irl or online, but ilu nigs

[Antithesis]

When people ask me "do you regret the years you spent playing Final Fantasy XI?" I'm usually quick to reply with a swift "no" that is backed by gargantuan list of reasons. However, the top reason will forever be my introduction and discovery of the BlueGartr forums. Specifically, Spam. I've been coming in here for years now and it brings a warmth to my heart to still see faces like Charismatic, Kiarax, Mizango, Rocl, Howie, Kohan Skirkle, Abandon, Ksandra and others posting here about as regularly as they were back in 2009. I've always admitted to myself that I considered spam as third family. My internet family. Times change here and there and my participation in the forums may have waned but I refuse to go more than two days without checking in here. Now is about as good a time as any to fully admit how much I truly love all of you. I have some of the fondest memories in this forum and they always bring me to a smile when I think about them.

Admittedly (most of the time) I have felt like the odd man out in Spam. Refusing to post more in spam out of fear that what I wrote or replied to was nonsense. This I consider more often than naught my own fault. I've grown and matured as the years gone by but many of my childish tendencies and fear still hold me back. With the introduction of Facebook though, some of the barriers that were there have come down and my confidence and love for you guys grew even more. Woozie was always one of my favorite smart guys to read posts from. From a first hand account let me tell you, everything about Woozie is true. He was a sweet, honest and nice person for the little amount of time I got to interact with him in FFXIV and Ventrilo. To think that Woozie's passing could have this much effect on me was something I was not expecting. Roy, I wish I lived closer because I would drive over to your home to give you a much needed hug. I think we both need it.

I can't stress enough how much I love all of you. Charismatic introduced me into a JRPG series that I fell in love with. He's always a blast to talk to when I muster up the courage to strike up a conversation with him. Howie has always been a wonderful gentleman and a fantastic friend. You helped me so much during many of my depression episodes and I can't thank you enough for it Howie. Kohan was one of the first people on this forum I actively went out of my way to PM because of how god damn interesting her posts were. I never met someone who loved Video Games that much who also possessed the tongue of a gifted orator. Talking to you about games always makes me happy. Demo is like a mixture of Howie and Kohan with a bit of sass and snark thrown in and I love it. You've also been a great help during my stints with depression and I also can't thank you enough. Let me not forget Day who deserves his mention for the sheer volume of laughs he's induced over all these years. Playing and getting to know him in FFXIV has made me realize just how awesome he really is. Miz, I consider you like the father of everyone in spam. Always looking out for everyone but quick to serve out that can of whoop ass when needed.


Probably more than my fair share of spelling and grammatical errors in that post but fuck it. I probably could have written more but I'm tired and my heart needs a bit of rest. Until next time Woozie.

[Mertron]

i consider miz to be my father too.

my black dad who isn't keeping up on child support

[Abandon]

I got sent home because while I wasn't a mess, they could tell it was effecting me. I've seen people get trapped in engine rooms that caught fire, people shot, etc, all in relatively close quarters, but none of that has hit like the loss of Woozie.

"Don't it always seem to go, that you don't know what you've got 'til it's gone"

Since 2008, i've been posting on BG, probably early 2009 for spam, and I can't say there are any other groups of people I've grown closer to. Through all the laughs, complete rage that some of you are capable of inducing, and legit, heart to heart conversations I've had with some of you, I have grown to love you group of faggots. That being said, as I said on facespace, if you EVER need to talk about something that's bothering you, feel free to hit me up. If you don't have my facespace i'm not gonna run out and blast my name all over, but if you PM me, I'll most certainly get back to you. Please don't feel like you're alone. Someone is there to talk to, even in the least likely of places.

[Akiyama]

ily2 abandon

[BaneTheBrawler]

i don't really know many of you that well, but i've known some of you guys for quite a long time, which counts, too. you guys have helped me improve my ability to step back and examine my thoughts and emotions, and in turn to better know myself.


you have all made a difference.