I Have To Let It Go

[Krye]

I just watched a Scanner Darkly.

Now I feel like a burnt out drug addict.

I feel this sadness, and I can't locate the source.

I think it's just residual feelings of worthlessness left over from my youth.

Scars that will never heal.

Why do I want to let go of my past?

I think it goes deeper than just the fact that there's nothing worth holding onto.

There were some good times.

Everything should be better now.

Maybe I'm trying to drain the venom so it won't sting me anymore.

But amputation is necessary in this instance.

The happiest times of my life have already passed.

I'm stuck in purgatory.

Nothing is real.

Nobody cares about me, not my family, not my closest friends.

[Shiroikage]

Nah, things will probably get better if you let them.
Might take a bit of work too. But from what I can tell, you're already putting in some work so something better, even if it's just a little bit better, can't be too far off.

[Howard Roark]

reminds me of the start of a scanner darkly

you're welcome

[Shiroikage]

A Scanner Darkly was a good movie and an even better book.

[Krye]

I think the movie stirred my emotions because I've been there and I'm lucky to have escaped with my life, let alone my mind.

[BRP]

Sup nigger this thread is so bad that posting FFXIII makes it better. Now you got a real reason to be a queer.

[Howard Roark]

hey wow a real live BRP

[Howard Roark]

now that's worth living for

[Krye]

That was refreshing, it's so rare that I get to cry anymore.

It's rare that I feel anything.