Real Talk

[Andalusian girls]

as some of you know my father died of genetic fun from Agent Orange poisoning last year, right around the time Dimmauk's dad went, and Fiye's mom went [(and Anthony Bourdain, and Charles Krauthammer) bad time to be alive]. Day's post from a few years ago about his mother's end got the trigger going. got me wondering what the deepest loss yall have suffered is. no politics, plenty of shitty jokes, but honestly wondering what is the heaviest thing yall have gone through, and come out the other side of.

[D44kpunk]

You just want to give milkster more cheap shots, not falling for it.

[Andalusian girls]

oh pobrecito mijito cielito Punkito, i'm just tryna further humanize the folk i spend an inordinate of time semi-socializing with.

[Andalusian girls]

i'll even go again if yall pussy foot around it as much as you pussy foot around the gay sex yall desire

tbh my father dying was the worst thing i ever experienced, by my high school girlfriend's overdose/suicide may be the most impactful. insert a PhD in psychology to help individuals like her and a long history of making love to damaged girls' faces ex post facto.

[Sonomaa]

I had a rare form of mononucleosis when I was young, started at 15, didnt end till I was close to 20, shit sucked. During that time my grandfather really helped keep me going, make sure I ate, drank, actually woke up, he was my guide in the darkness of no energy, constant fevers, all that crazy shit. His cancer that he had beaten once before decided it was time for him to go and within 2 weeks he was gone. It practically broke me and I was already without hope, having been sick for 2 years at that point, life just kept rolling nat 20s on my sick ass. I almost gave up a few times but I stuck with it and survived and I keep his memory alive as best I can. Miss him every day, he kept the family together a lot through tough times and made it rise better during good ones.

[Day]

Was def my mother obviously, but 2 months prior I had just lost the drummer in my band to a drunk driver that turned the wrong way on a highway that hit him and his dad head on, all 3 people died instantly. They were coming back from his dad's birthday dinner and he was gonna come over and listen to Billy Joel's stranger album and have some drinks with us (something weird we do).

Anyways that was my first big loss and my mom's cancer returned for the 3rd time all at the same time. 7yrs ago and haven't been the same since, don't sleep, anxiety through the roof, think about death all the time, sucks tbh.

[Day]

i'll even go again if yall pussy foot around it as much as you pussy foot around the gay sex yall desire

tbh my father dying was the worst thing i ever experienced, by my high school girlfriend's overdose/suicide may be the most impactful. insert a PhD in psychology to help individuals like her and a long history of making love to damaged girls' faces ex post facto.

Obv losing a parent is tragic but damn man the OD/Suicide would be rough to handle

[Andalusian girls]

Was def my mother obviously, but 2 months prior I had just lost the drummer in my band to a drunk driver that turned the wrong way on a highway that hit him and his dad head on, all 3 people died instantly. They were coming back from his dad's birthday dinner and he was gonna come over and listen to Billy Joel's stranger album and have some drinks with us (something weird we do).

Anyways that was my first big loss and my mom's cancer returned for the 3rd time all at the same time. 7yrs ago and haven't been the same since, don't sleep, anxiety through the roof, think about death all the time, sucks tbh.

as stated mine was only last year but hitherto a bit same. used to tease Panda about the social anxiety he suffered, had never experienced anything like it. was tall and beautiful and strong and chilled back af listening to Sublime and life came a bit easy. after watching my taller, stronger, marine corps father waste away the way he did tho have had anxiety about a bit of everything. can't even smoke weed anymore get too lost in my own head.

if you don't mind the axin was you your mother's son or your father's? know we ain't supposed to have favorites but everyone does. was so much like my father it's bonkers.

[Andalusian girls]

Obv losing a parent is tragic but damn man the OD/Suicide would be rough to handle

yeah fam. to be a bit gay the second half of this sums it up about as well as it's been summed up. she was half a lifetime ago but never loved anyone the way i loved her. tryna tinder with a ghost in your heart is not the best of things.

[Andalusian girls]

I had a rare form of mononucleosis when I was young, started at 15, didnt end till I was close to 20, shit sucked. During that time my grandfather really helped keep me going, make sure I ate, drank, actually woke up, he was my guide in the darkness of no energy, constant fevers, all that crazy shit. His cancer that he had beaten once before decided it was time for him to go and within 2 weeks he was gone. It practically broke me and I was already without hope, having been sick for 2 years at that point, life just kept rolling nat 20s on my sick ass. I almost gave up a few times but I stuck with it and survived and I keep his memory alive as best I can. Miss him every day, he kept the family together a lot through tough times and made it rise better during good ones.

this sounds like an extremely hard time, but a good memory. my grandfather really came through as well when the family really needed him (dude killed Nazis at Bastogne of course he did) and that kind of example really sticks with you the rest of your life eh. teaches you how to be a man long after it's over.

[D44kpunk]

My brother died when I was 14, he was 16. Had some lung complications and when they tried to do surgery they punctured his lung. Got sick and died, dad and step mom divorced afterwards.

Think it's weird seeing someone so young and close to you in age die, not to mention the malpractice stuff and sibling stuff

[Rhyis.]

• One of my best friends died in Afghanistan from an IED in 2010.
• In December I had surgery on my heart to negate a genetic heart disease I have called hypertrophic cardiomyopathy.

That's what I got.

[Day]

My brother died when I was 14, he was 16. Had some lung complications and when they tried to do surgery they punctured his lung. Got sick and died, dad and step mom divorced afterwards.

Think it's weird seeing someone so young and close to you in age die, not to mention the malpractice stuff and sibling stuff

Fuck man

[Milkster]

2005: The senior who was my big brother my freshman year of high school died of brain cancer. First person I came out to.
2006/7: The aunt who was basically my second mom died of stage 4 pancreatic cancer. My best friend from kindergarten died in a drunk driving accident.
2010: My father died of lung cancer that metastasized to his brain. Oh the weekend before he died he forgot who I was. My best friend in high school hanged himself. That was fun to walk into his garage with his family to see.

There’s been a string of deaths and suicides since then that I don’t feel like remembering or talking about. Go Navy!

You just want to give milkster more cheap shots, not falling for it.

You stupid piece of shit. When people use the death of others they supposedly love to try and guilt others into sympathy they’re the worst kind of person and trash. And should be treated as such. Go castrate yourself and die in the woods.

[Astylla]

My mom dying broke me for years and to be honest some days still does. That was 14 years ago. She was my absolute rock and the first person to ever truly believe in me. She did her best to protect me from the abuse at home and from life but in a way ended up being a detriment, still I know it came from love. I threw myself into alcohol drinking a fifth of vodka everyday after work and doing about double that for weekend partiesI had with my boyfriend at the time. I still struggle with that.
Holidays and Halloween is especially bittersweet since it was her birthday.

To follow up on that my dad who I was basically estranged from since 2002 died in 2016. I got a call from my sister on. Monday he was going to hospice, flee out on a Wednesday to Florida, by Sat6he was gone. I made my peace or so I thought as feelings of anger and betrayal still haunt me.
He was in hospice and I literally just walked out to talk to the nurses and came back and he was gone. I'll never forget how I screamed that day, I had not prepared myself for this, for both my parents to be gone at a youngish age. I was 26 when I lost my mom and 38 when I lost my dad though I'm also the youngest in my family by 17 years age gap.

As much shit as I have been through by others , I would still not wish this grief on anyone.

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[Day]

You stupid piece of shit. When people use the death of others they supposedly love to try and guilt others into sympathy they’re the worst kind of person and trash. And should be treated as such. Go castrate yourself and die in the woods.

Lmao what if they try to use the deaths of relatives to insult them, I could be a real dick right now but I'm clearly the bigger man.

[Milkster]

Guess that Keto diet failed after all.
I’ve been on the internet since 2003. I’m openly black and gay. There’s 0 you could come up with that would be interesting. But do you.

You use people’s family to insult them all the time I.e. Dimmy and his Wife

[Milkster]

Try to insult them with*

[D44kpunk]

Sorry for your losses milkster. That sounds rough

[D44kpunk]

Fuck man

Happened a long time ago now, but I still remember him telling me he didn't want to die. Keeps me up at night occasionally. Death is whack